This work is SO far above me. It's so far above my own issues and struggles. I know the Lord knows me personally and desires more than I know help me at all times. I know that by obedience I can ask for anything in line with the Lord's will and it's granted. We had an AMAZING speaker: Rober P. Swenson. INCREDIBLY motivating. One thing he said that struck me was, wouldn't it be sad if you went to the Lord and asked for something, but the reply was "I'd love to give you that more than you know, but I can't because you haven't been obedient." My take was not that the Lord does not desire to bless us. Absolutely. But we also know in D&C that it is upon the law which it is predicated. Being obedient is key.
Our second "investigator" is named Joel and he's more difficult. It's a process to learn not just a desire for the work, but helping those you teach establish a trust in you. One lesson we gave was totally skewed off what we planned. He did NOT seem terribly interested in what we were saying about the Plan der Erlösung (plan of salvation). I was determined to get to the bottom of WHAT he needed, in a way that he could feel trust and absolutely knew we loved him. I finally talked about the Book of Mormon (again aside from other lessons). I bore my testimony that reading it SOME how brings me peace every day. I'd studied that morning but not in the Book of Mormon. I was obedient, but hadn't read the "main dish." Only the opptional side dishes. I talk with Heavenly Father frequently in my head which is hilarious most of the time, and He taught me that great lesson of reading in the Book of Mormon EVERY every day. I asked tons of questions, not probing, but sincerely to find out what need he had. I bore my testimony to Joel that I hadn't read that morning from the Book of Mormon and my day had been a little more foggy than normal. I bore it with such conviction, clarity, and accountability that the Spirit came. I told him with fervor that we were NOT there to waste his time. We were there for him. If the book wasn't true, we wouldn't come back. I then asked if he would commit to reading the Book of Mormon with his "family" and pray to know if it was true. He said he would. Wha-BAM.
The Spirit works so clearly its INCREDIBLE. I totally feel like a power ranger after those lessons. Every swipe of my arm or whip of my head makes a "whip" sound. Your spirit is taut with energy and love! It's amazing to me that that is felt even when we're quasi ("kv-ah-zee" more or less in Deutch) acting! I've also loved applying the principle, Speak and Revelation comes. Amazing and useful! ;)